Ok, here goes. My ACL is indeed torn and I have some micro-fractures on top of that. The surgeon looked at me and said, "well, you knew it was torn". Yes, I did. The micro-fractures means more recovery time. So, I'm about to embark on a new chapter. I wonder about making art and how I will adapt. I know I will adapt and am actually curious about how that will take shape. The way I work now is pretty physical, so will I quiet down, be more inward with the work, work smaller or slower??
How will this change manifest in the work? I start tomorrow!! I'm actually not afraid or that sad. I'm sad I won't be dancing with my buddies, but know how wonderfully joyful it will be when I get to rejoin them!! I'm not afraid of the pain or the hard work ahead. My main concern is that I will undoubtedly have to rely on the help of friends and family. This is the hardest for me, but I will have to learn to be better at this too.
I'm sure the lessons will be many...humility, compassion, self-care, patience all come to mind. I will soon learn of many more I'm sure.
Now I do some physical therapy and strengthening to get ready for surgery. I have about four weeks to wait and one workshop trip to make beforehand. Then I have a good ten weeks to rehab before my next trip and probably six to nine months before I'm back to regular routines.
But tomorrow, I paint.